Tentang Sebuah Perpisahan: Cinta Tak Akan Pernah Mati

​You are always in my heart and in the every air that I breath. I love you.

Apa yang akan engkau lakukan apabila
engkau jatuh cinta pada seseorang tetapi tanpa sadar apa yang engkau lakukan hanyalah mendorong seseorang tersebut jauh hingga ke titik batas sehingga ia memutuskan untuk meninggalkanmu?

Akankah engkau hancur berantakan? Apakah engkau akan berusaha mendapatkannya kembali, walaupun tahu bahwa semua terjadi karena kesalahanmu sendiri?

Atau dapatkah engkau menjalani sisa hidupmu menyadari bahwa engkau mencintainya sepenuh hatimu tetapi engkau juga tahu bahwa apa yang telah terjadi sesungguhnya telah terjadi dan tak dapat diperbaiki? Dapatkah engkau memaafkan dirimu sendiri, karena hal tersulit daripada memaafkan orang lain adalah memaafkan dirimu sendiri?

Apa yang akan engkau lakukan?

Kalau aku? Aku tidak tahu, selain hanya mengutuki diriku sendiri karena engkau pergi, aku ingin merengkuhmu kembali, tetapi aku berpikir bahwa, akankah kita bisa kembali berbahagia seperti dulu? Pertanyaan bodoh memang, karena mungkin saja dulu yang berbahagia hanya diriku dan tidak dirimu. Bukankah engkau pergi meninggalkanku justru karena engkau tidak berbahagia denganku?

Dan aku tahu, beberapa luka tak pernah tercipta untuk dapat mengering. Selalu akan ada luka yang tidak akan pernah bisa hilang, ada noda yang memang harus dibiarkan tinggal. Bahwa mungkin satu-satunya cara agar aku dapat terus berjalan dan melanjutkan hidup adalah justru dengan berdamai bersama kenangan tentang dirimu, alih-alih menghapusnya.

Aku juga belajar satu hal darimu. Bahwa cinta memang tak akan pernah mati, tetapi ia dapat pergi saat engkau memperlakukannya dengan setengah hati.

Seperti dirimu.

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12 thoughts on “Tentang Sebuah Perpisahan: Cinta Tak Akan Pernah Mati

  1. No offense but let me guess. She just contact you each time she needs something you can provide. True or nah? After she left have you ever need her and she’s there for you? No??? C’mon. She’s your history or to be precise you’re her history. You’re nothing for her right now, deal with it.

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    • btw do you think i can’t get myself over her? i said i miss her and i love her still. but what is gone is gone, what happened in the past stay in the past and nothing can be done. i said that the memories of her that torture me, not her. and for your accusation so let’s see then if you are right. time will tell. i’ve got nothing to lose coz nothing i can say now, i have no more ace to play.

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      • It’s so typical of woman, you know. If she left you that mean she’s not for you. Too bad your eyes clouded by your illusion of her. Or may I called it love? lol

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          • You have your own life, my dear brother, just like me, like her, like your other ex-gfs. Everybody deserves to his or her own life apart from their past, or someone who makes them look forward to tomorrow. Not the past. So please, calm down. Check your phone. I called you but you didn’t answered.

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            • yeah, you’re right. thank you. i guess she loves me not. not anymore maksudnya. hehehe, ya sudahlah. i’ve been wasting my time kayaknya ya and life indeed goes on. silly me. ups sorry, something bad happened lately. i’ll call you back then.

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  2. Let’s just forget
    Everything said
    Everything we did
    Best friends and better halves
    Goodbyes
    And the autumn night
    When we realized
    We were falling out of love

    There were some things that were said that weren’t meant
    There were some things that were said that weren’t meant
    There were some things that were said that weren’t meant
    There were some things that were said that weren’t meant
    There were some things that were said that weren’t meant
    There were some things that were said that weren’t meant
    There were some things that were said that weren’t meant
    There were some things that were said but we never did

    Not to be
    Overly, overly dramatic
    I just think it’s best
    ‘Cause you can’t miss what you forget
    So let’s just pretend
    Everything and
    Anything between you and me
    Was never meant

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